frustration...

28 th july ..thts when my training got over in infosys....after tht inhave not written a single piece of code...to be precise ....these were my days..when i was so frustrated tht i started pullin off my hair......hehehehe...a little bit....
after training when i met the HR she told me tht it would take atleast a month for me to get into production bcos accounts were being closed at tht time.......and as it was christmas time....everyone was on leave...i was posted to AMEX(american express).........2 months past by and there i was doin nothing.......
my schedule would be to come to the office early morning even though when there was no need.....have bfast with my friends....and there they would go for work......and i was left alone......thn i would go and play counter strike with other "useless employees" as termed by my company or "fhukat pagaar khaane waala " as termed by some of my friends.
i have just written this poem (just started writin ,my second poem) ....this is wht i wanted to say to all my friends when i was on bench but couldnt speak out...

Sit, drink your coffee here, your work can wait awhile.
You're 22, and still have some of life ahead.
No need for wit, just talk vacuities, and I'll
Reciprocate in kind, or laugh at you instead.

The world is too opaque, distressing and profound.
This twenty minutes' rendezvous will make my day.
To sit here , with friends all around,
Staring with beady eyes, and you all 4 feet away.



.......this used to be very funny for them but if u ask me...its daam frustrating to be on a bench when u came to the comapany on the notion tht u would be a part of their success story........this kep continuing for 4 months .... at this moment i was the only person from my batch who didnt even have a pc of his own.....a nomaad roaming from 1 building to other with the expectation tht he would get some friend of his to atleast talk to him....thn i fine day when i asked my TL abt PC he asked to go and pluck mangoes in the campus...tht was the day when i felt so insulting...after giving my entire heart and soul in training this is wht i got......thn on 12th march i got allocated to a project ......KT session went on for 2 weeks......one fine tuesday morning whn i was browsin through the newspaper i saw an recruitment ad which GOOGLE had posted....i was never confident of callin them...when i called them first the telephone operator said WELCOME TO GOOGLE.......... immediately disconnected the phone.....bcos i was not confident of even talkin to them....MY CONFIDENCE WAS SHATTERED BIG TIME.....I HAD LOST HOPE AT THIS MOMENT OF LIFE.......again i called thm and i was selected for the big GOOGLE...test in bangalore.....went to bangalore for tests ........cleared all of themmmm...thts when i got my confidence back....... still the results are pending ...but wht may the result......it was my frustration tht .led me to giv this test........thts when i learnt the biggest lesson of my life.....

A WINNER IS NOT THE ONE WHO NEVER FAILS,BUT WHO NEVER QUITS......